This is ME

forever

Fri, 19 May 2006 02:10:53 GMT

nothing is forever...friendships....loves...lives....everything...everything ends at one point or another the funny thing is we dont realize what we have until its gone if i had one wish it'd b to be able to aknowlege when we were having one of those amazing moments and just be able to savor it forever bc everything and everyoen leaves

oh boy

Thu, 11 May 2006 19:00:19 GMT

oh how i miss being happy....... it was only a few days ago but the past two days have felt like centeries ahhh i wanna get the fuck out of this town and meet new people and have no relationship what-so-ever with them this was i could give two shits arggg im counting down the days till collegeeeeeeee ahhh oh yeah n i love how the person taht hurt me was like why are you mad at me n im liek WHAT THE FUCK ...WHY THE FUCK WOULDN"T I BE MAD AT YOU????? omgggg like seriously if that person thinks about how they feel about me mabe than its bc ive realized u hate meeeeeeeeeee so there now i hate you thank you for being another example on why you should trust no one and not get attached to anythinggggg fuck it ...later

uh

Wed, 10 May 2006 23:07:45 GMT

okay so i'm passed pissed off mode now im jus like upset, like why am i not wanted? what did i ever do? and if one person i trusted feels this was how many other fake friends do i have? idk i fucking give up like seriously i can't fucking wait to get the fuck out of this town! and seriously i think its better to have a million aquaintences than liek a few "best friends" bc although there are still some of you i love, i feel like one by one i'm being emotionally killed, its like one day i'll just be an empty soul roaming the earth looking for more i though my dark period was over and it still may be... mabe its just a bad day....mabe something else will make up for it....i sure hope so there's gotta be more than the darkness.....never trust in the end it will only hurt ..... later kids

fuck you

Wed, 10 May 2006 21:30:50 GMT

leave it to the ones you trust to fuck things up when you're finally stable....end theory ..... trust no one and you won't get hurt......fuck you i hope you fucking die.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i want to screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah n i'm like shaking bc like im fighing back crying n trying to b strong but idk how the fuck i can do that fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk plus this bullshit im pmsing n i hav the worst cramps in the world can some one run me over with a car then mabe this i will stop hurting its funny i shouldve known that when i was sick you didn't care but i was foolish and believed that u did but u didn't you were just doing "the right thing" so you could look yourself in the mirror well guess what doing things out of guilt is no better than not doing them at all....go rot in hell

haskfdhakfhdkafjh

Tue, 09 May 2006 21:23:31 GMT

hey kiddies um yeah so im bored im supposed to b writing my conclusion to my term paper....but im not ahhh soo bored yeah everythings going rather well i must sayy umm parents r okay umm schools okay yeah i stayed home today bc i wasnt feeling superb umm yeah so yeah and umm yeah everything is rather stable at the moment k so yeah im done ttyl mwahxox peace out cub scout <33britt

yooo

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 21:09:58 GMT

k so i had work today it was cool umm yeah and my stupid brother told my mom i wrote a good poem n now my mom wants to read it but i dun want her to bc like its kinda darkish and shes like all emotional and shit n i dun want her to get defensive but idk i told her it may b a liil bit too intense so i think she got the idea but im not sure i hope sooooooooooo until later <33 Britt

lovelyy

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 16:44:50 GMT

k guys sryyy i havent updated in a while ive been knida busy not like neone relies on my lj but w/e umm k so not a badd week at all actually its been a pretty good one umm lets c i hav my sat next week which im not like happy about it but i dun think ill do that bad and i kinda wanna get 'em over with already ya kno umm idk yeah i guess thats it sats r consuming my life its redicilous but oh well ill deal i promise k so yeah im gonna go bc im a boring person oh well ttyl lyl mwahxoxo <3britt

good days

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 00:48:08 GMT

k so im rather content with my life at the moment things seem to be coming together for me like theres still minor flaws but nothings perfect right?? thats okay bc it feels like perfect considering what is was.... later kidzz just thought i'd check in n let u kno how life is....life is good.....

hdkjahfkjhsdfksjDGHFKJSGHDF

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 22:30:15 GMT

mmmmm k o wow i think i start off every entry with the same damnnn thing o boy who the fuck cares...anyway um yeah so friday....dancing with the teachers... then starbux then a totally awsome drive home with lauren...and may i just say i lucked out and got home like 15 minutes before my parents yeah that rocked my soxxx mm k so then yesterday i had work then i went to nicks film festival which was cool except i was fuckinggg totally pissed when i missed is film..yeah ahh im still agrivated ... omg n by the end i was like passing out in every meaning of the word i was DEADDD and yeah so i went home and went to sleep but it didnt feel like i went to sleep bc i woke up like 4 hours later..not even to go to work which was cool bc i dun mind it and i make money ...n i need money bc i need a car and in order to get a car i need money i swear its all relevant..hehe...um yeah n now im working on my thesis paper ...so yeah bitches that was my weekend ...not bad at all ...hopefully it just keeps lookin up :D bc ive been really happy and like honestly happy not like the fake kind which is cool bc i kinda think it suits me so yeah ...thats about it so umm i'll ttyl bye babes <3 Britttosiousss <3 oh and by the by i swear i'm not as stupid as i seem i just don't think before i speakk hehe jus thought id get that one out in the openn peace out cub scout

howdyy

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 21:17:55 GMT

hey guys i havn't updated in a while n i feel bad this is so short but i just wanted to establish..i'm happy, i have nothing to complain about.....i never thought this day would come... im happy yay k im goin out now later dudesss...much lovee...peaceeee

alohaaa

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 20:04:58 GMT

heyy so umm i got this to aid to my emoness however the past like three days i've been like totally cool and happy and such....idk im happy once in a while but i mean like right now im truly happy like i havent cried in days n i am starting to like it yayyyy go meeee oh and the weather is totallllyyyy amazinggggggggg and i really dont think anything can ruin my day like to be perfectly honest soo many things went wrong with my day but my mood was totally uneffected by it and thats totally awsome yayyyy um k yeah so thursday i got a haircut n a new sweater n then chilled with the gurlies which was totally cool bc we havnt hung like that in decades n then yesterday i had work which was cool then i went to leah's with bunches of people n its was mad chill yo n hmm then today i had work again which wa cool...again...... hahah n HOPEFULLY tonight i can play extreme manhunt because that would make my yearrrr k so i think im like about done n i've totally bored you i'm sorry but if u were reading this in the firstplace u were bored already hunny... 8-) hehe kk ttyl bye bitchess <33 Brittosioussss

my day....

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 20:13:19 GMT

arity so my day went as follows..... my mother woke me up in the middle of a medioaker dream but i son't like to be woken up so that pissed me off then shes bugging me to clean the basement which resulted in a screaming contest between my brother and i which then resulted in a fight with my mother screaming at me then i was just pissed b/c i really cant stand my family anymore n i can't wait to move awayyyyy and now i'm happy bc im going to spend passover with mel n her family n then we r gonna play manhunbt ...and manhunt makes me happy i suppose idk its better than this oh yeah n i have a shitload of homework that i need to do.....i suppose i shall do it tomorrow oh yeah n one tree hill is on tonight so that makes me a happy camper....

yeahh

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:02:27 GMT

mm k so i've come to the conclusion that i am wayy too emotional and i hav a lot of things that i need to get out and so i decided to set one of these up because i erased my myspace n i need somthing to do anyway so i might as well...um yeah so thats about it on why i got one of these k so now for my day...

i woke up n my parents pretty much had a list of shit they wanted me to do which consisted of cleaning like the entire house n that pissed me off but w/e im used to it n all day i was thinking about how freakin over protective my parents are and how redicilous they are n so i flipped out n got into a hugee fight with them about it but they kept asking me what happened to change my mood and how come i was so happy n now im sad umm that really pissed me off bc what they dont realize is that i am never happy the closest thing to "happy" for me is smiling and temorelally forgeting my pitty problems and issues and it just annoyed me that they think something has to happen for me to be upset they need to realize this is who i am....until tomorrow bc im just getting heated thinking about this... xoxo Britt